The Idiot’s Guide To Everyday Life

Update on the moving situation
24.Aug.06, 15:45 pm
Filed under: Friends & Fam, Goals, Hopes, My Munchkins, Our Little Nest, Plans

I found out this week that I will be starting my new job in 3 wks instead of 2 months! I can get out of OKC a lot faster now, thank you guys.

Life has been shitty here recently. It seems like everything Dale does reminds me of why I’m moving away. He’s very selfish lately, and I’m getting very sick of it. I honestly don’t think he means to do it sometimes, it just comes naturally to him. He was babied for so long by that godforsaken mother of his that he’s just used to being the center of the universe. He’s never broken that habit, and it’s coming out more and more now.

I’ve started packing. I bought a few new tops yesterday on sale at LB and I need to figure out what I can pack into boxes that I don’t plan to wear soon. I also need to start packing up kitchen stuff soon. I’m leaving the dishes for Dale, I really don’t even want them anymore. He’s chipped so many of them it’s pathetic. I’m buying new ones, ceramic this time instead of stoneware or earthenware. Ceramic won’t chip as easily, but the finish can be scratched or scuffed, so I’ll have to keep rubbery shelf paper in between them if I stack them. I ordered half of my dishes today, so I’ll order another set when I get moved, or closer to moving time. That way they’ll ship directly to the house, instead of here.

I’ve got the info I needed for Jaden to start school- he’ll be going to Rainwater Elementary. It’s supposed to be one of the best in the area. They’ve got a behavioral specialist on staff, and I like the fact that he’ll be wearing uniforms. To me, that’s very status-leveling. You won’t see kids wearing high-dollar clothing to school making fun of kids who have hand-me-downs. There’s nothing wrong with hand-me-downs, but some kids think they need to be picked on. At least this will neutralize things appearance-wise.

Jaden has been riding his bike to school the past couple of days. He really enjoys it. I am glad I let him start. He gets plenty of exercise, sunshine, and fresh air that way, and hopefully it gets enough energy out of him first thing in the morning to help him behave and focus all day. I feel so bad for him sometimes with the ADHD. It frustrates the hell out of me a lot, but I’m sure it does the same to him. He’s such a good boy, and he just wants love and attention. I love my little goobersmoocher!

My little princess is getting a very spoiled streak. We went to Old Navy yesterday to check out the clearance racks and I found her a dress and a shirt on sale really cheap. Everything in the store she’d point and say, ‘Are those for ME?’. I’d have to explain to her, no, they’re for other people, not everything is for you. But she’s so adorable, everyone in the mall who passed us would stop and say hi to her, and if they had a stroller with them, she had to stop and see the “baby” no matter how big the “baby” was. If they were sleeping, she’d put her finger over her lips and say, “Shhhh. The baby is sleeping, we have to be quiet.” They all loved her. She’s such a doll. What would I do without her. She got to pick out a bag of candy, and with the 50% off sale, her little handful only cost me 20 cents, so I bought a big bag to take home and keep up for later. Hehe

I can’t wait to be in our own house, with lots of


Day 5 with no Zoloft
9.Aug.06, 01:56 am
Filed under: Goals, Plans, Tidbits About My Life, Work

It’s been 5 days since I ran out of zoloft. I’ve been on it for almost 3 years straight, same dosage, but my idiot doctor refuses to listen to me when I tell him it’s not helping as much anymore to try to change the dosage.

Today I felt like crying all day long. No major reason, other than my normal ones, but I saw a pic of an old flame online and my tears just came. It’s been so long since I saw him last, why would this upset me so much now?

My current reasons for being upset other than PMS:

1. I’m completely miserable in my current relationship. Dale makes me feel worthless and I’m sick of it, but I need to have my business built up or a job started before I can move out.

2. I’m broke, and I’m tired of being broke. Having to roll change to go to the store to buy tampons at midnight is not my idea of savings.

3. I wish I could get my kids to mind me better. My son is completely out-of-control, and he’s only 7. He’s a good kid, don’t get me wrong, but he just does bad things. He doesn’t listen. He looks at me and then turns around and does whatever the hell he wants and I’m ready to throw him through a wall right now.

4. I want a better life for my kids. I don’t want my example for them to be staying in a bad relationship just because I don’t have anywhere else to go.

I want to get out of here. I want to be a better person, and staying where I am isn’t helping that goal. I need to get my PC business built up to where I need it to be income-wise so I can achieve my goals. My current goal is to get sales up to about $8000+ per month. That would give me a profit of $1750, which would pay mortgage on my house in Dallas, and bills, if I scrimp and save. I can also start my apprenticiship with Tony as soon as I get down there, so that will help me immensely. That will give me 2 income sources, so my PC business will be to pay bills, and the salon work will give me the freedom to do things with my children and to fix up my house.

I think I can do it. It would require a minimum of 3.5 big sales per week, but I could do it. If I could make it to $20k in sales, the kids and I would be able to go to San Francisco in April, so I’d really like to make that. I think they’d enjoy the trip, and there’s so much to do there together. My goal is to be a director by Dec 1, so I need 5 recruits qualified by then, and then I’ll be promoted! I can do it, I know I can.

Thursday in my life
4.Aug.06, 04:08 am
Filed under: Friends & Fam, Tidbits About My Life

Ok, my friend Lupita is catering the wedding reception of our mutual friend Lauren, who has eloped with her FI to Jamaica and will be returning sometime tomorrow or Saturday morning. Lupita has had the clubhouse in her neighborhood booked for months now, and yesterday found out that the fucktard in charge of bookings for the clubhouse scheduled her for Sunday, not Saturday.

Now, Lauren’s FI is from Chicago, and they’ve got a very tight schedule (some would say impossible, when you figure in jet lag) and will be flying out on Sunday for Chicago so they can not only have a second reception there (all done by Lauren) but also so she can move there, with her two-year-old daughter and get settled in with her FI. She’s completely out of contact right now, so we have no way to tell her what’s transpired here with the village idiot who is running the event center for said village.

So basically, Lupita and I have been calling places all day that have cheap or free space to host this reception for 70 people in 2 days. People must think we’re nuts, but alas, it’s not us who is nuts. I feel so bad for Lauren, not a single invited guest showed up for her bridal shower or bachelorette party. NADA. Zilch, ZERO. Not a single friend or family member. I wasn’t invited, as I only know her from, so we’re not close, but I feel sooooo bad for her. This also makes me wonder, are we going to go to all of the trouble to find a location, and prepare food for 70 people, and then 3 show up? If any? Lauren never even finalized the menu with Lupita, so we’re making Jerk Chicken Meatballs, but have no idea what else she wants with them. It’s a mess.

Note to future brides-to-be: Planning is key when you’re not going to be around to finalize details. Make sure that all vendors have things laid out well in advance, with locations and menus confirmed BEFORE you leave the country for 2 wks to elope incommunicado!!!!

I hope we can salvage this reception fiasco. It’s going to be rough-sailing, but I know Lupita is the world’s most amazing cook, and if anyone can pull it off, it’s her. We just have to pull together and find a location!

On a better note–

I now have 3 PC kitchen shows in the works (2 booked, and 1 just waiting for the date) and a possible catalog show. One of the hostesses also seems interested in possibly becoming my first recruit, so I’m really excited!!!! I think one of the only good qualities of being a Manic-Depressive is that the manic side of my personality makes me throw myself into something completely, and when I do, I put all of my effort into it. I just pray this works as well as I’m hoping it will. I really need this to work, for me and for my children.